Okay, so, first I got me a new little part time gig today (Yay for me!). I'm a receptionist at a nail salon and spa. It's kinda like being a hostess or maitre'd at a restaurant, only its seating people for manicures and pedicures instead of meals. It's a little bit of an adjustment, but I like it.
So anywho, I get home from a full day of training and guess what greets me on my door....? A 3-day notice to pay rent or deliver possession. But wait, it's not even the 1st of the month you say? Well this letter isn't from my landlord, its from the Homeowner's Association and apparently, my landlord hasn't been paying her HOA fees, or her mortgage for that matter. As mad as I could be, and should be, I'm too tired to care about it tonight, so I grab a 6-pack of Yuengling Black and Tan, some pantyhose and heels for work tomorrow and head for my favorite think tank, my garden tub.
While in the tub, drinking beers and soaking my cares away, I notice that a spider has built a web in the space between the bottom of my toilet and the wall. Now, granted I don't like spiders, but I've been having an annoying case of gnats and fruit flies so I'm thinking, "This is GREAT", my new eight-legged friend can eat these fruit flies! No sooner did I come to this realization that two of those pesky little Bzzzers flew right past me. So, I decide, I'm going to help my spider by catching his meal for him.
Well, long story short, I damn near broke every mirror in my bathroom trying to catch this fly. I tried trapping them in cups, towels and blocking them with paper, to get them close to the web. The I tried using my computer screen to attract and kill one to drop onto his web. I succeeded in mushing one gnat, and even dropping him on Spidi's web, but he didn't even register anything had touch his web, it wasn't alive, and he was dependent on his web to do its job and catch his food, alive and viable.
Okay, so here's the big aHA I got from this experience, drunken in the tub, tryna be more spider than a spider.... sometimes we try to be more God than God, more Spirit than Spirit. more spider than a spider. We chase things down, damn near breaking every part of our lives and barely get excited about things just "dropped" onto our webs, that we didn't have to catch ourselves.....
Lest we forget that, Spirit has enabled us to build strong webs?
And with these webs, if we are only patient and methodical, like the spider, then we can trust what we need will land in the web, right?
Another thing, I noticed, is that whenever the flies did get close to the spider's web (naturally, without my "help"), that he would react immediately, scurrying quickly to try to grab this opportunity he could sense was close at hand, before it got away. When he didn't catch it, he just went back to waiting, patiently, for his web to do the job.
How quickly do we react to opportunities that we sense are near our web? How frustrated do we get when they allude us even though we did our best to capture them? Stop tryna be more spider than the spider, and just build a strong web. If you don't catch anything, perhaps build a bigger web. Then wait, and trust, something you need will fly into it.
I'm willing to bet my spider friend will have a meal by morning, with no assistance needed from me.
